This pandemic marked the start of a very stressful and rough couple of years. I graduated with my Bachelor’s of Physics with a concentration in Astronomy — into the pandemic. My father fell ill at the end of 2021 and passed away February 25, 2022. (RIP Daddy. I will miss you.) I have been struggling with crippling depression and cPTSD symptoms. Lately, it has been very hard to focus and complete tasks. Most days I have spent hermiting in my room, barricading myself in.
During therapy, I received a diagnosis of ADHD Inattentive and OCD. This has been a great relief to me as I now understand why I struggle sometimes to complete the simplest of tasks. Reading a book has become nearly impossible as I find myself having to reread the same sentence over and over again, with no luck of absorbing the words. Television shows, movies, and even video games barely hold my interest anymore. Sometimes I have what I call moments of clarity where it seems I can hyper focus on a task and I use that time to create artwork. Either I draw all day every day or not at all. I enjoy those little moments though.
Despite all that has happened, I am still remaining hopeful for the rest of this year. I am at peace with all that has occurred. Life has moments that are beyond our control and it’s best to just take a deep breath, process the emotions, make peace with them, and release the pain. We cannot control what life throws our way, but we can manage our emotions.
One of my goals for this year is to start journaling again. I will be writing in a gratitude journal as well as a journal to dump my emotions into. I find that journaling really helps me organize my thoughts and allows me a chance to fully evaluate where I am at in the present.
Another goal is to update this blog! Yay! Here I am doing it! I will be planning on dumping my thoughts on random topics here from now on.
Thanks for taking the time to read today! ‘Til the next post!
~ Love Mira.